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Saturday, October 04, 2003

heyss!! i just got home!!!

*maiSy >>>> the fridae bung

guess what??!! i met maiSY todae!!!! hahahaha...yup....

u know.. she's soooooo girLY... with a capital G!! realli lor... looks totally like a noraml girll.. haha... but she's cute... she's 23, but doesnt feel like it....

she reminds me of Sylvia.

she a nice person lar... yup.. we went to watch infernal affairs at Lido.. the movie was sucky man... haha... rather slow..

we went for dinner at scotts.. it was supposed to be me and her only.. then bloody hell she happened to meet her two friends, then i ended up with all of them!! argh.. felt so extra, and i was coughing so badly...

so, the "date" between me and her, became a grp thingy... sheesh... haha...

we went for coffee at Lips Bristo after dinner... i stayed till only about 1207?? cause i was feeling really sleepy already and didnt realli know what they were talking about..

yup...

heys... YOU know... i still thnk of u frm time to time... yup... realli enjoyed all the times we spent together... whther it was only us alone or with friends, i enjoyed every moment. yup.. hope u did too..=)

but, its all over...

i wonder wheher i still think of of the times we spent together once in a while.. it'll be nice if u did... how sweet.... =)

zenna boxed the green apple at 1:19:00 AM

Thursday, October 02, 2003

im feeling sick man... using my friend' s laptop to blog now...

yup.. im in sch doing my project as usual. i feel like vomitting sudenly.. think cause i ate to much crap. ive been snacking non stop.

that bung that i got to know asked me to call her last night.. so fun-neh yar.. haha.. but didnt call in the end.. i was busy doing my work and m voice was too sexy. hahahha

got a feeling that if i were to call her, it wouldnt just be THAT one phone call.. its gonna continue... haha... yup.. have already been talking to her thru msn consecutively since the first time we talked..yup.. so... like that lor...

haha.. and she sent me her pic!! yep.. shes okae lookin lar.. not too bad.. uh huh... but she says that her hair's longer now.. in the photo, her hair's spiky...

i wonder how she looks like now.

oh yah... u know..the feeling's different.. like during the ircing days, i thnk if someone were to ask me to call her, haha.. i would.. but now.. it feels funny... i feel scared..like... 'wat if she turns out to be a guy??" haha.. right??

i think yar... if i really called her.. it'll slowly lead to a day,where i'll be meeting her!!! dont u think so?? right? hahaha...

yep... fun-neHhHHh.....

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zenna boxed the green apple at 5:43:00 PM

woke up this morning feeling lost again...

i dunno what to do.

why do i keep feeling this way???

i dont want to be feeling this way..

i feel stuck.

part of me says 'stay'... part of me says 'heck it'.

......................i dunno what to say.

gotta rush off for class now.

zenna boxed the green apple at 8:48:00 AM

Wednesday, October 01, 2003

i just got home not long ago and just took a bath.

stayed in sch till 1015 to do my project.

and i need ot continue on it later... argh.. another late night for me!!

im so sleepy...

dunno wat to blog.

oh yah...bought my pants and shoes for my presentation alrady, left only the skirt, blouse and blazer to buy. yup.

projects suck. ive got no life.

and wats even more sucky is that, MY HANDPHONE line GOT CUT OFF!!! argh man....

no $$$ to pay... shity.... wonder how im gonna survive.

gotta depend on the free internet smsing services to message u guys.. haha....

k then ... gotta do my work soon.

zenna... get on with ur life... stop holding on ...

zenna boxed the green apple at 11:14:00 PM

oh man.. im still up doing my project.

cant seem to finish ths darn thing.

i suddenly have the urge to blog.

need to get something off my chest, so that hopefully, by doing so, i can do my work better.

she online now, and ive got the sudden urge to tell her that i miss her. so badly.

i really do.

maybe im just not used this yet.

i know i should getting myslf out of this.

im fine. i am doing it. im trying. really hard. and it seems to be getting harder.

i dunno where to start.

but, im fine.

just need to blog eveyrthing out.

im feeling better now.

thanks blog for listening..ure always here when i need u. wldnt know what to do without u.

*phew*

zenna boxed the green apple at 2:07:00 AM

Tuesday, September 30, 2003

im still doing my project.. think ive gotta stay up late again...hai... i am stressed...

should i go monks with dae and ke rou this friday? get to know more pple?? distract myself frm thinking so much?? i dunno.. i dunno what to do.

im in a stuck state.

help me!! can u?

but why am i thnkng so much?? dont i already know what im supposed to do?

crap.

darn.

school sucks.

*pui* =)

[[[[[Baby, I can't see my worth (I can't see) living here on
God's green earth, you don't know what
you've done to me, (done to me) I never thought
I'd need you desperately,(desperately) it's kind
of sick how I'm stuck on you(stuck on you)
but I don't care cause I'm needing you (I'm needing you)
and how I feel will remain the same (remains the same)
cause your're my baby, (cause your my baby)
listen and when the world starts to stress me out,
(where I run) it's to you boy without
a doubt (you're the one) who keeps me sane and I can't complain
(can't complain) you're like a
drug you relieve my pain (may seem strange)
you're like the blood flowing through my vain, (oooo)
keeps me alive and feeding my brain,]]]]]

Ashanti>> baby

zenna boxed the green apple at 11:00:00 PM

i am so sick of schoOllLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!

schOOLLL is b.o.r.i.n.g...so boring!!!

and the computer sucks!! im using the com in business lab 4..and the space bar of ths keyboard is not working properly..i ve got to like press sooooooohard so that i can actually space my words..so irritating..damn

got to know this person thru fridae.com last night... been email -ing each other... so i thought like wat the hell?? just MSN lar.. so i talked to her..yep..thru msn that is...

she's 23,virgo and working that some ocean building..haha.. thats wat i found out though.. asked her if she was femme or butch..haha...said she was in between...like huh??? wat the hell?? hahaha... but she said she was more on the masculine side... hmm.. so i was like.. hmm.. okAE..haha

yup.. its been so long since i like met someone online?? hahaha.. like ermm..since my ircing days??? hahaha.. yar man.. brings back memories....

yar...and she was flirtacious... thats wat i feellar... she was either trying to be funny.. or just being plain flirty... yep..

so now i got her on my msn list.

i wonder how she looks man.. haha... her profile doesnt have a pic. so...im like on the 'losing end'... cause she knows how i look thru my profile.. but i dun... damn.

yep.. said she'll send me her pic soon... yar.. i wonder when.. asshole. oh yar.. and she called me a little girl.

like WTH??? onli 5 yrs older!!! so wat if shes older??? her thinking might not be... said she liked young girls.. and i was like.. n" cause easier to bluff right?? ".... she was like " u so clever... so ur'e not that easy to bluff..".. then i was like thinking.."WTH.."..haha

but over all.. it was nice meeting a new person.. yep..

i gtg now.. my grp members wanna continue on their project..tonight then....

zenna boxed the green apple at 3:33:00 PM

im doing my project now.. just woke up half and hour go...

need to be in sch with this project in 1hr 45 mins time.. arGH...

projects are shityyyyYYY man.. haha.. but im ending schoOl in three weeks time!!!

wahahaha..lalalalala

blog later..

cheerios

Selena
>>never get over u, getting over me

"I try to smile so the hurt won't show
Tell everybody
That I was glad to see you go
But the tears just won't go away
(Won't go away..)
Loneliness found me
Looks like it's here to stay

I know that I oughta find someone new
But all I find is myself
Always thinkin' of you"

zenna boxed the green apple at 10:05:00 AM

Monday, September 29, 2003

mariah carey
>> love takes time

"I had it all
But I let it slip away
Couldn't see that I treated you wrong
Now I wander around
Feeling down and cold
Trying to believe that you're gone

Chorus:
Love takes time
To heal when you're hurting so much
Couldn't see that I was blind
To let you go
I can't escape the pain
Inside
Love takes time
I don't wanna be here alone

Losing my mind
From this hollow in my heart
Suddenly I'm so incomplete
Lord I'm needing you now
Tell me how to stop the rain
Tears are falling down endlessly

Chorus

You might say that it's over
You might say that you don't care
You might say you don't miss me
You don't need me
But I know that you do and I feel that you do
Inside.."

zenna boxed the green apple at 8:53:00 PM

i went out with dae today.

went NUS for lunch, with her and kerou and kerou's GF...

then went to Pasir ris park in the evening, had drinks and snacked, i had BEER!! woohoo... it was nice... yup..

then stayed till around 9.30, then went to 85 for supper...

met jillene, mel and su an... ate porridge and chatted till around 11.. su an had to go off first though..

then later on...dae sent me home.. shard a cab with mel, sent her home first, then me and dae.

yup..dae's a nice person.

and im so gonna lose my voice.. seriously..

i sound so sexy... haha.. a total turn on man..
haha..

zenna boxed the green apple at 1:10:00 AM

Sunday, September 28, 2003

hmmm... just came back not too long ago.. im tired and sleepy... been having late nights these past two days...

i have totally lost my voice can??

realli... i feel 'mute'..haha..cant express my feelings and emotions man!! so xin ku.. haha

my throat doesnt hurt, but the voice just doesnt want to come out frm my mouth!! yeap..

tmr, i think im gonna meet dae... and her grp of friends... going ikea, then after that dinner i think... yup.. another long day?? havent had a good rest man..

its sucky when u have many things around u that remind u of things that u wanna forget.. it makes it so much more difficult to forget what u wanna forget..
hmm..sounds soooo cheem..

basically, today, i went to work till 3... then went over to lene's place for awhile, then we made our way to PS to meet nana, kaylii, zi and rendy.. benard came along too.. it was nice meeting up with them.. we were at lips bristo.. nice place to be at.... wanna go there soon... yup.. got 50% discount..haha... we ordered like so many things to eat lor... sat there till about 10.30.. then only me, lene and rendy hung around PS till ard 11.30.. we were thinking of a nice place to go for a nice talk, but cldnt think of anywhere, so ..haha.. we just sat at some steps outside PS...

PS brings back memories.. so does many other things... there were pple watching scoccer on the big screen and screaming goal... and i thnk it was Man U?? yep..

haha.. u know what.. me and jillene ran for the last train..we thought we were gonna miss it and ran like mad.. havent run like that for a very long time..haha.. so 'chuan' man... then when we reached , bloody hell... there was like 4 mins more till the train comes lor.. shity right.. make us run for nothing..
haha...

man.. im getting so sleepy.. cant think of anything to blog... think i'll go sleepnow.. i have to... *yawn*...

Witney huston
>>didnt we almost have it all

"Remember when we held on in the rain
The night we almost lost it
Once again we can take the night into tomorrow
Living on feelings
Touching you I feel it all again

Chorus:
Didnt we almost have it all
When love was all we had worth giving?
The ride with you was worth the fall my friend
Loving you makes life worth living
Didnt we almost have it all
The night we held on till the morning
You know you'll never love that way again
Didn't we almost have it all

The way you used to touch me felt so fine
We kept our hearts together down the line
A moment in the soul can last forever
Comfort and keep us
Help me bring the feeling back again

Chorus

Didnt we have the beat of times
When love was young and new?
Couldn't we reach inside and find
The world of me and you?
Well never lose it again
Cause once you know what love is
You never let it end "

zenna boxed the green apple at 1:30:00 AM